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The stories have moved.

Well kind off. We have abandoned the WordPress platform and now our site is being hosted elsewhere. If you type in gonebush.org it will take you straight there but if you are one of the few people who get an email when a new story is posted you won’t be receiving it. My son Charles will fix that when he manages to get a bit of spare time. I have just posted the 3rd part of  The Man Who Stopped. You should find this site a lot easier to find your way around. You’ll also find our video’s and other bits and pieces if you have a poke around.

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The man who stopped (Part 2)

Bill knew he’d become a man because he went to bed worried and woke up stressed, he’d watched his dad do it all his life.

He was now caught up in the world of adults, which is a bit odd because as a 10-year-old he’d declared to his mates that he would never be like grown-ups as they worried, were boring, and had no idea how to have fun.

Yet here he was, an adult (at 16!) filled with responsibility, and it felt awful, which from the discussions he overheard in the smoko shed must be normal.

The first year of his working life crept by like a slug chasing a sloth. Bill progressed from stacking timber in the yard to the planer shed and then to the tanalising plant. It made him feel a bit more important, it was just a shame they didn’t increase his wages, but he was climbing the ladder and hoped his dad would be proud of him.

On the weekends Bill went pig hunting with his friend Tom. Together they traipsed the hills, ever hopeful of finally catching a pig. Tom loved his dogs almost as much as they loved him, and if they’d known he was after pigs, they’d have gladly caught their master hundreds. After escaping death row at the local pound, their Saturday jaunts into the bush to sniff, pee and bark at shadows was paradise. Bill & Tom had a great old time too, and like the dogs spent all week dreaming of the freedom Saturday would bring.

And that was life, endure the working week, hit the hills on the weekends and then do it all over again, and again, and again, and again,………..

By the time Bill was 48 he’d worked his way into a better paying job, owed the bank a heap of money for the house he and Alice lived in, and they were as happy as most reasonably successful people can be. He and Alice never managed to have any children, which was a real shame as they would have been great parents. But life deals its cards, and you need to play the hand you’re given.

Tom and his dogs were a distant memory, but the draw of the bush was as powerful as ever, and he and Alice spent most of their weekends tramping, hunting, or just plain relaxing up in the hills.

One Friday night while they were painting the living room they decided to have fish and chips. Bill stayed behind to clean up and told her he’d have 2 pieces of fish, a hot dog and a scoop of chips. A drunk driver saw to it that Alice never came back.

The house they had worked so hard to make their own became a prison of memories and Bill sold it not long after the funeral. He rented a small flat not far from where he worked and got on with life as best he could. He stayed away from the bush for several months, terrified he would hate it as much as the house now Alice was gone.

Life without Alice and the freedom of the bush was unbearable and not long later his 49th birthday, Bill took a risk and grabbed his pack, 308 and a bit of tucker and headed up to his bivy.

It was the one place he and Alice had never shared, so was pretty rough and ready, which was just the way Bill liked it. That night as he lay in his sleeping bag, listening to the comings and goings of the night creatures, he had his first decent sleep in months.

He saw three deer the next morning but didn’t fire a shot. He just watched them graze and sniff the breeze. Alice had taught him how to just look, she called it smelling the roses. He smiled when he thought of her, and the sadness he felt was almost like a friend.

He’d only planned to stay the one night, but the weather was good, and he was in no hurry to go back to the madness of the city. That evening he shot a spiker and cooked its liver with a few onions. As he sat by the fire, lightly searing his dinner, he whistled.

Bill did that when he was happy.

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Crashed

I was going to write a bit more about Bill tonight, but we were involved in a car accident and are stranded in Te Awamutu, so thought I’d write about that instead.

Sue was towing the quad, and we were hit from behind by a young guy who was following a bit too close. I bet you’ve followed a bit too close before, so have I, interesting how indignant I felt when we were the victims.

I’m a worrier by nature, have been doing it all my life. Our trailer was wrecked, so was the towbar on our car, and we have a job to start next week up in the Coromandel. But I’ve been worrying for over 50 years and have had enough of it. It’s a complete waste of time and doesn’t fix anything. Instead, I found a few good reasons to be happy. Sue was uninjured, so was the young bloke that hit us. Our insurance company is being difficult but the lady I spoke to was really nice. It’s not her fault that the company she works for is making things awkward.

Sue and I located an engineering company who bent over backwards to help us. We parked our house truck on the farm that is owned by one of the engineer’s parents. Hopefully our Toyota Surf and Trailer will be good to go tomorrow. But if not, all the worry in the world won’t change that a bit.

Worry, no thanks, gave it up.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The man who stopped

His name is Bill.

You’d probably walk right past him in the street, like all the other people you walk by.

And after reading his story you’d probably do it all over again, but maybe, just for a second, you’d notice him, before more important matters swept your mind away.

But that’s not likely to happen, as Bill has no time for cities, towns, streets or anywhere people have scratched up the warm earth and covered it in concrete and tar seal. Nor would you if you’d seen a kārearea plummet from the sky and turn a kereru into a cloud of feathers that only the breeze could steal away. No, he would no more give up his world of kokako, crystal clear streams and the freedom of the ngahere then a billionaire would give up his mansion for a jail cell.

But there was a time when he was just like the rest of us, busy, always busy, and not really knowing why. His life was filled with bills and worry, deadlines and unpleasantness, and occasionally, just very occasionally he would try and imagine his life being different, but he couldn’t.

This story is about how it happened. If you like powerful endings and good plots then I wouldn’t bother reading any further, this is just a very simple tale about a man who stopped.

Bill was born in a little place called New Lynn (it’s not so little anymore). He had brothers and sisters, parents who did their best, and when he was older he went to school, that’s what kids do.

Life was reasonably straight forward, a bit like a story until his granddad died. He was 12 years old when it happened, and he didn’t like the story he was in anymore and wanted to be in one where his granddad didn’t die. Kids are silly like that.

Watching his dad and uncles throw the last few clods of earth on his Granddads grave was a big turning point in Bill’s life. As they walked back to the car a sadness came over him that decided to stay.

The best day of his life was when he packed up his schoolbooks for the very last time and walked out of the school gates into a world full of promise. That night as he sat at the family table, his dad winked at him as he passed the mashed potatoes. ‘You’ve got the world at your feet now Bill. Your first day on the job tomorrow, I’m proud of you son.’

Bill felt all grown up and liked the  feeling.  But it didn’t last long.

The mill was a dirty, noisy place. They put him out in the yard to stack timber to see how he would go. His hands stung, back ached and when the smoko bell went, he felt like crying but ate his sandwiches instead. It was the longest day of his life, and when the knock off siren finally sounded he fled the place, vowing never to come back. But when his dad passed the peas and winked at him that night, Bill changed his mind.

He listened to the older blokes as they chatted in the smoko room and could tell they didn’t like being at the mill either, but like him, they kept coming back, they’d just been doing it for longer. When he stood in line that Friday to pick up his pay packet he worked out why they kept coming back. The brown envelope felt good in your hands.

Eager to forget the week just gone and desperate to not think about the Monday to come, most of the older blokes went to the pub. Bill shot into town and put a down payment on a car he liked. He needed it to get to work, and he felt like a million dollars when he drove out of the car yard.

When he filled it up on Monday, it gave him a bit of a shock. He did the maths as he drove to work and it gave him a sinking feeling. He’d need to stack a few more packets of timber each week so he could meet his car payments, board and fuel.

When the knock off whistle went that night, he stayed on to stack timber. By the time he found a forklift driver and filleted a packet of 6×1’s there wasn’t enough light left to go for a rabbit hunt.

He met the foreman in the carpark.

‘You got insurance for your car?’

‘No’

‘Not even third party?’

‘No’

‘Your mad!’

As he drove home that night he decided to get some organised. He’d need to work a bit harder to pay for it.

Billed slammed the car door when he got home. He’d never done that before.

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The Hard Man Weeps (Part 7)

Henry was lost in thought as he slipped and slid his way to Les’ hut and hardly noticed the dawn chorus as thousands of birds greeted the morning sun. Hope had lifted his spirits, and he briefly let his imagination paint a picture of what his burnt over block of bush and mud could one day be. Instead of slush, stumps and ashes, he imagined acres of grass, tight fences and healthy stock. He remembered an old saying of his mum’s when times were tough.“Oh, how bright is the sun and beautiful the day when a storm has cleared the air.” He allowed himself a brief smile as he thought of those better days, those days before the war.

The war; just the thought of it made him flinch. Steeling himself, he pushed away his fanciful thoughts and focused on the cold hard reality of life. The farm of his dreams was years away, and he knew the chances of achieving it were low. And then there was Les, what to do? Henry was relieved that Les was on the road to recovery, but he was another burden on Henry’s meagre financial and emotional resources. He was beginning to warm to Les, and that was a luxury he couldn’t afford. It was a hard lesson learned in the trenches of Passchendaele. The vision of friends bodies draped over barbed wire and buried in the foul, stinking, mud often haunted his sleep. He had no room left for the pain friendship can bring. Les had to go, he was of little use around the farm, and the worry of the man starving to death was a responsibility Henry could do without. The sun was warm on Henry’s shoulders when he arrived at the ponga whare.

“What to do?”

He sat down and rolled a smoke, a vice he’d learned in Europe. Dragging deeply on his cigarette an idea came to him which at first shocked him. But as he mulled it over it began to make sense. Finishing his smoke, he tossed it into the scrub and entered the hut to retrieve his axe and saw. He had a good look inside. Apart from a few eating and cooking utensils and the Bible and exercise book, the hut was bare. He stepped back out into the sunshine and gathered up some dead ponga fronds and other dried vegetation and piled them up against Les’ home. A breeze had started to rustle the leaves of the few remaining trees, it would serve his purpose well. Breaking up some manuka twigs he kindled a fire and watched guiltily as the flames licked and smoked up trough the ponga fronds.

When the flames reached the whare walls,  Henry had a pang of conscience and rushed inside to retrieve the Bible and exercise book. In less than five minutes the hut was reduced to a few sheets of twisted roofing iron and smoking ash.

Henry didn’t feel proud of himself, but it was done. He’d planned to tell Les that the hut must have burned down the day they left, but now he had the books. He couldn’t bring himself to chuck them in the scrub nor could he return them to Les. He opened the Bible, something he hadn’t done since the war. On the inside cover, written in copperplate was the inscription ‘Awarded to Leslie Jamieson for perfect Sunday School attendance. Dec 1904.’

Underneath the inscription in a rougher hand was written the following verse.

John 15:3 Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.                                                                                 Jesus Christ

He snapped the Bible shut and roughly placed it on the ground before rolling another smoke. He had a couple of puffs before opening the exercise book. Inside were rows of figures written in the same hand that had written the Bible verse. At the top of the first page was written ‘FOR MY OLD AGE’ Underneath Les had documented every penny he had earned or spent. The amount spent on himself over the years was tiny and consisted mainly of flour, salt, sugar and soap. Henry knew he was prying, but couldn’t stop turning the pages as he watched Les’ tiny savings grow. At the top of page six was the final entry.

Expenses

05/06/32  My friends – £87.30d

Balance £0.00d

And the hard man wept.

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The Hard Man Weeps (Part 6)

It took Henry nearly a week to write the letter, and by the time it was posted he was mentally exhausted. Admitting to his brother that he needed help and thanking him for the money was a bitter pill to swallow, but Henry’s concern for his family was more pressing than his pride. He informed his younger brother that he now had a £87.30d share in the property and when the farm started to pay, Henry would repay the money with interest. And though it galled him, he asked for a further loan to restock the farm. The one small concession was that stock prices were at a record low so the sum Henry asked for was not great. Times were different back then, and Henry didn’t mention the contents of his letter to Rebecca nor did she ask.

Relieved his letter writing was over, Henry made a new handle for his axe, sharpened his saw and continued his assault on the forest. He was working under the bush canopy near the Waimihi stream when some massive thunderheads blew into the valley. Oblivious to the approaching storm he was laying into an ancient totara when the lightening started. He ignored it at first, but as the storm intensified and hail started raining down sticks and leaves, he resigned himself to finding shelter to ride out the storm. The old whare that Les had lived in was only a few hundred yards away, so he made a beeline for it. It took a lot to frighten Henry, but when a bolt of lightning hissed and sizzled through the bush canopy, blasting the crown of an old rata into wooden shrapnel, he ran. By the time he reached the whare, he was drenched, and his body stung from the pounding the hail had dealt to him. Not bothering to use the latch, he kicked in the door and burst into the ponga sanctuary. It was dark inside and while he caught his breath his eyes to adjusted to the gloom. The first things he saw were Les’ Bible and exercise book on the packing crate table. He felt a sudden sense of foreboding and turned his gaze to the manuka bed. Under an old Hessian wool bale he could see the outline of a body. Henry froze, not wanting to confirm the accusation of his conscience. With deliberate slowness he approached the bed, “Is that you Les?” he asked, hoping and nearly praying for a reply.Almost imperceptibly, the form under the blanket moved, and a small, weak voice stammered “Y-y-y-yes, h-h-h-how are y-you H-Henry?”

“I’m well, but what about you? I thought you’d gone.”

“S-s-s-s-sorry, I-I-I h-h-h-had now-w-where t-t-to….”

“No, said Henry, I didn’t mean that – I just didn’t know – I just thought – oh hang – what’s wrong with you man, are you sick?”

Les shook his head. “N-n-n-no j-j-ust a-a-a b-b-bit h-h-ungry.”

Henry looked around the confines of the tiny hut, there was not a skerrick of food to be seen.”

“As soon as this storm blows over, you come with me, and Rebecca will cook you a good feed.”

Les smiled weakly. “I c-c-c-can’t g-get u-u-up.”

“Here, I’ll give you a hand.”

As thunder boomed overhead, Henry gently lifted Les out of bed, frightened by how little he weighed. He sat him on the huts only chair and shuddered when a flash of lightening illuminated Les’ gaunt features. Henry had witnessed death on the battlefield many times before and knew it wasn’t far from Les.

While they waited for the storm to pass, Henry wrapped Les’ only blanket around his emaciated shoulders before kindling a fire in the hearth. It smoked and sparked, but it did radiate a little bit of warmth and gave Henry something to do. Neither of them was good at holding a conversation, and despite his guilt, Henry knew intuitively that they didn’t need to. As the storm passed and the weak winter rays of the sun pierced the gloom, Les smiled. It baffled him, the man was almost dead, a hunchback that had been entombed in this miserable hut for years and treated poorly by Henry. Yet there was not a hint of accusation in his smile, just the obvious joy of Henry’ companionship. Henry would remember it for the rest of his life.

Henry was a big man and carried Les’ skeletal body all the way home without stopping. As they neared the house, Rebecca rushed out to meet them. When she saw Les she gasped. “Henry, what happened?”

“He needs food and drink and a warm bed.”

Henry knew the next few days would be touch and go, and missed 3 straight days of work so he could help Rebecca as she tended to Les. Once Les got some of his strength back they asked him what had happened. He told them the frosts had destroyed his garden, and he had run out of supplies.

“Why didn’t you come to us?” Henry regretted the words the moment they left his mouth.

Les just shrugged.

On the 4th day, Les was on the road to recovery and Henry was able to get back to work. It was a sunny day, and he felt happier than he had in a long time. He’d left his axe up at Les’ hut so took a few tools with him to repair the door.

It would prove to be a trip that changed Henry’ life.

But more on that in the next blog.

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